So, I am commenting about aspects of my present experience I don’t like and she reminds me matter-of-factly that what I am living now is the physical manifestation of thoughts I entertained in the past. Ideas take some time to manifest… tangibly. I wrestle with the idea that although the inner transformation can be instantaneous, the benefit is sometimes not immediate. She goes on to say that the human challenge is to continue to hold on to your intention even in the face of evidence to the contrary. Faith in the outcome is necessary.
Of course! How could I have forgotten!
There have been times in my life, where I have doubled back because I could see no path ahead, only shadows. How hard do you try, before you decide you are altogether on the wrong path? Do you doggedly forge ahead until you find the world transforming in ways you had imagined? Do you change course, and follow the path of least resistance? Someone please tell me where to sign up for a map of the different trails!
I remained alone most of today in a quiet space where feelings could surface. I know that my best barometer has always been my physical responses or ‘living thoughts’ as I like to call them. So, I check out the butterflies in the stomach, the lethargy that is hanging like fog, the feet that fidget. Knowing exactly what is going on is less important than acknowledging that something is going on, and letting the sensations flood me until I am at peace again. With the insights that are surfacing, I will continue to smile at the creativity it took to get me where I am today, and stay focused on what I want tomorrow. Visualizing tomorrow as if it were today is how you weave the tapestry of your future.